Another National Anthem

A Song for my friends

Fri, 24 Apr 2009 05:10:44 GMT

Music & lyrics by Matthew Garlin

I know we never thought it would get like this
But leave it all to chance
Part of the time you sit and wait
The other times you dance
And maybe this is where it should end
The parting of two good friends
I believe there is a better work in store
We can’t keep stalling
I want to know that you can move
I don’t want you crawling
And time is time and it works true
But it starts to work against you

And I lift a glass to my friend
I hope that you find serenity
And I lift a glass to my friend
Please never forget about me
I know you can’t stay forever
I know we don’t travel together
But wherever you go always know
That wherever the road may bend
I will lift my glass to my friend

You’ve had your troubles and I got mine
Things are tough as you go along
And I know we can’t stand around
Trying to sing a song
I wish to God that I was still there
But know that I will always care
You go your way and I will go mine
This is hard even to think
I want to believe that if I see you
I can always buy you a drink
It’s not what I wish to do
I wish I could stay with you

And I lift a glass to my friend
I hope that you find serenity
And I lift a glass to my friend
Please never forget about me
I know you can’t stay forever
I know we don’t travel together
But wherever you go always know
That wherever the road may bend
I will lift my glass to my friend

And I look at you from afar now
You look so grown
Who would have guessed from all these years
Life is still shown
And I know you need your space
And this is the end
But I will think of you with fond memories
I miss you, my friend

And I lift a glass to my friend
I hope that you find serenity
And I lift a glass to my friend
Please never forget about me
I know you can’t stay forever
I know we don’t travel together
But wherever you go always know
That wherever the road may bend
I will lift my glass to my friend
And I lift a glass to my friend
I hope that you find serenity
And I lift a glass to my friend
Please never forget about me
I know you can’t stay forever
I know we don’t travel together
But wherever you go always know
That wherever the road may bend
I will lift my glass to my friend

©2009 Copyright Sherwood Music Inc.

Sat, 24 Jan 2009 17:45:26 GMT

So with the addition of being sick on the first week and not being able to get back into the exercising regimint that i'm used to has just sucked. I'm kind of lost in my head right now. I don't know how to feel about anything right now. I've been in rather bad moods all this week. I'm having the doctor check me out for two different things, one I have been diagnosed with anxiety. But the other is pending. I won't say what it is, but if you see me and know me, you can kind of guess what it is. So I am officially crazy lol comforting. I'm finding myself very cynical and less than optimistic nowadays. I'm not holding out any hope for anything that could bring me some kind of serenity. I do have one thing that for some reason takes the edge off so I'm going to continue going forward with that. This whole thing is kind of an update, not for pity because I don't believe in pity at all. I just losing my belief that happiness comes upon me. It's getting harder and harder to find a peace of mind. Anyway, life goes on.

This semester is going to be absolute hell for my emotional and psychological senses. But we'll see what happens lol

Sun, 04 Jan 2009 17:41:08 GMT

So in the last couple of months I've had a lot of highs and a lot of lows. this semester was the hardest, I've ever had. It was trying emotionally and academically. Well I got through it, I guess with my tail between my legs. I know this coming semester will be just as hard. I did for a while find serenity in going down to the pond in front of the school. Then i started smoking a little bit. Something I kept to myself for a while just because I didn't want people to start asking questions. Then I began to write more and even finish writing work. I have done 9 demos for Sherwood, my mega opus, and I realized that number one it's not the horrible piece of shit that people think it is, but it does need a bit of work. I am also prepping for the film that I'm going to do senior year. It's called Did You Say I Love You, it's a love story about how love can happen at anytime. Bishop has signed to play the best friend and I will play the lead character. Some people are going to call me egotistical because i did this, but no one is giving me the chance to act or show that I can act so I might as well push myself and do it myself. I am also working hard on season two of Girl of Your Dreams. That's going to be tough because now we are a hit and people actually have expectation on what will happen, but I'm following my original outline and not compromising what I think will make this show good. Thank god, we have Courtney and Bishop, I don't know who I would have cast if Courtney left the school. I am also working on some new plays right in a row. I have come to the fact that I will be known for filmmaking even through I want to also be a playwright. So I feel like I am going to write the films and the tv show in the fashion I would if I were writing a play only because I won't get a chance to have my work on stage. There are other developments elsewhere too, but I'm keeping those very close to my heart because I've seen things and people come and go and I'm not holding my breath for anything or anyone. Someone like we doesn't deserve any kind of happiness and I've seen enough to know that things change in a heartbeat. It's cynical, but life isn't a fairy tale, even through I've fallen in love with Taylor Swift's songs including Fearless, Love Story, and Our Song, but I am listening more to the song White Horse, which is more cynical look at what love really is. This semester is also going to be tough since I am going to have to say goodbye again to people who are leaving. it's the second graduation I've had to watch Jared walk away. But now, not just him, but others who I care the world about. I'm not going to think about that now, but I don't see this semester as being a really easy one.

Sat, 27 Dec 2008 16:05:51 GMT

Music by Alan Menken
Lyrics by Howard Ashman

Proud of your boy
I'll make you proud of your boy
Believe me, bad as I've been, pop
You're in for a pleasant surprise

I've wasted time
I've wasted me
So say I'm slow for my age
A late bloomer, Okay, I agree

That I've been one rotten kid
Some son, some pride and some joy
But I'll get over these lousin' up
Messin' up, screwin' up times

You'll see, pop, now comes the better part
Someone's gonna make good
Cross his stupid heart
Make good and finally make you
Proud of your boy

Tell me that I've been a louse and loafer
You won't get a fight here, no ma'am
Say I'm a goldbrick, a good-off, no good
But that couldn't be all that I am

Water flows under the bridge
Let it pass, let it go
There's no good reason that you should believe me
Not yet, I know, but

Someday and soon
I'll make you proud of your boy
Though I can't make myself taller
Or smarter or handsome or wise

I'll do my best, what else can I do ?
Since I wasn't born perfect like mom or you
Dad, I will try to
Try hard to make you
Proud of your boy

I'm sorry, mom and dad for the bad grades. One day I will make you proud of your dumbass son.

Sat, 06 Dec 2008 17:12:43 GMT

It's been a while since I wrote in this thing. Well I've been doing homework and writing shit. This semester has been the most emotionally and academically draining. Trying to deal with everything has been really hard for me. I've had more than one mental breakdown, usually I only get one a semester. I've been trying to get into my head to figure out what's going on. The semester is almost over which on one hand is great, but it's one less semester I get to see some friends. I am trying not to think about that. I've been working on some new ideas too. I have a new musical I've started working on about Christmas.

I've gotten back to work on the rock monologue I started back 5 years ago. I wrote a new script for a short film that I'm going to do in a year. It's the first short film I've decided to direct since The Waiting Room. I wrote a short film before that with Yours Truly, which actually hasn't even finished production, we're waiting to get back to work and finish that project. I enjoy the continued work I am doing on my musicals, plays, and films.

Unfortunately, I realized that I will never get anywhere with my plays here at Assumption like Jim. Brian is almost going out of his way to block my work so about a month ago, I officially quit AC Upstage and working with Brian Tivnan. I figured here's ACTV that doesn't ask to see a script, doesn't really care about content, and hasn't given me a problem yet and allows me to do whatever I want and then there's Tivnan who has to approve everything, now which one would you want to stay with? So I'm going back to work on the TV show without Maria Cerce, so that's going to slow it down a bit, but hopefully people will like what we are going to do for that new season. Anyway nothing else really new so that's enough for now I'll be in touch soon lol

Sun, 12 Oct 2008 23:29:57 GMT

Music & lyrics by Glenn Frey & Don Henley

Desperado, why don't you come to your senses
You've been out ridin' fences,
for so long - now.
Ohh you're a hard one.
I know that you've got your reasons.
These things that are pleasin'you
Can hurt you somehow.

Don't you draw the queen of diamonds boy
She'll beat you if she's able.
You know the queen of hearts is always your best bet.
Now it seems to me, some fine things
Have been laid upon your table.
But you only want the ones
That you can't get.

Desperado,
Ohhhh you aint getting no younger.
Your pain and your hunger,
They're driving you home.
And freedom, ohh freedom.
Well that's just some people talking.
Your prison is walking through this world all alone.

Don't your feet get cold in the winter time?
The sky won't snow and the sun won't shine.
It's hard to tell the night time from the day.
And you're losing all your highs and lows
aint it funny how the feeling goes
away...

Desperado,
Why don't you come to your senses?
come down from your fences, open the gate.
It may be rainin', but there's a rainbow above you.
You better let somebody love you.
(let sombody love you)
You better let somebody love you...ohhh..hooo
before it's too..oooo.. late.

Disney Withdrawals

Sun, 28 Sep 2008 18:47:23 GMT

I need my Disney, it's been three years and I can't stand it.

Can you remember
Back to a simpler time
Back to the watercolor days
That still run through your mind

Oh, I remember just my old friend and me
Runnin' through an open field
The way it used to be

The feeling that our hearts could just take wings
We could live out all our dreams
The journey there was never far away

But like a dream come true
That's still inside of you
The secret of tomorrow is
To live your dreams today

Remember the night
Remember the feeling
Remember the magic
In our lives

You opened up my eyes
To a new world revealing
So remember the magic
Just remember the magic
One more time
Oh, remember

Do you remember
The way it used to feel
When love was only make-believe
And fairy tales were real

Oh, I remember
You were with me once again
Free to live our fantasies
It never has to end

The feeling that our hearts would just take wings
We could live a world of dreams
Together we would sail against the wind
And now I know where to begin
How to find it all again
From now until forever

Remember the time
Remember the feeling
Remember the magic
In your eyes

You opened up my eyes
And you gave life new meaning
So remember that feeling
Just remember the magic
One more time
One more time
Remember the magic

The Show Must Go On

Mon, 15 Sep 2008 04:32:41 GMT

Empty spaces - what are we living for?
Abandoned places - I guess we know the score..
On and on!
Does anybody know what we are looking for?

Another hero - another mindless crime.
Behind the curtain, in the pantomime.
Hold the line!
Does anybody want to take it anymore?
The Show must go on!
The Show must go on!
Inside my heart is breaking,
My make-up may be flaking,
But my smile, still, stays on!

Whatever happens, I'll leave it all to chance.
Another heartache - another failed romance.
On and on!
Does anybody know what we are living for?
I guess i'm learning
I must be warmer now..
I'll soon be turning round the corner now.
Outside the dawn is breaking,
But inside in the dark I'm aching to be free!

The Show must go on!
The Show must go on! Yeah!
Ooh! Inside my heart is breaking!
My make-up may be flaking!
But my smile, still, stays on!
Yeah! oh oh oh

My soul is painted like the wings of butterflies,
Fairy tales of yesterday, will grow but never die,
I can fly, my friends!

The Show must go on! Yeah!
The Show must go on!
I'll face it with a grin!
I'm never giving in!
On with the show!

I'll top the bill!
I'll overkill!
I have to find the will to carry on!
On with the,
On with the show!

The Show must go on.

Tue, 12 Aug 2008 15:09:13 GMT

Okay so I've had a long couple of days from last week to this week but it's changed me for the good. For now there are now people who know that my father spent the past week in the hospital. He had an infection on his foot, which has caused us trouble for 10 years but it still is a big deal. My mother was on a trip in Gettysburg so this left me by myself in my really big house. Now as much as it was a terrible time for my father and my mother, it was the best experience of my life. I actually had to grow up and be able to take care of myself. To some, it may not seem as a big deal but it was. It also forces you to think about things cause you got nothing else to do. I finally figured out some things I've wanted to figure out. What is a man" My father never told me, for him it was always about him and not about others. I didn't want to grow up like that. I found out what I need to do. I need to be able to take care of myself but also still take care of others. You need confidence but not have an ego. You need to be able to figure out what you can do at the same time, do what you need to do. I know I'm a control freak, but I'm trying to learn to let go and just let others do what they need to do. I also have figured out what I want and what I don't want in terms of a love relationship and I'm happy with being by myself for a while and if something comes up where I care about someone and they care about me and they can stand to put up with me for long periods of time and I can have a good conversation with them then we'll see what happens but I'm looking to help others the best I can with that I can. I'm ready to get back to work in school and bring some new work to life including Jim's new play, my second season of Girl of Your Dreams, and a new play I wrote which will remain a secret until I can assure that it will get on.

I'm sorry I've been MIA for the past week but I'm a bit different than I used to be and I hope that's enough to change people's perception of me.

Update:
So this week has gotten longer. My grandfather died. I'm telling people this so that they can pray for him and my father. My father took the news rather badly and I want to make sure that my father has anything he needs including prayers especially for my grandfather. I can hand this, I think my mother is coming home early. Because my father is in no condition to walk around, I am going to help my uncle with the funeral arrangements. I can deal with this. I have to. I just ask that I have some friends who will help me and make sure I don't do this by myself.

Imagination

Sun, 10 Aug 2008 14:45:43 GMT

Written by Brian Wilson and Joe Thomas

Another car running fast
Another song on the beach
I take a trip through the past
When summer's way out of reach

Another walk in the park
When I need something to do
And when I feel all alone
Sometimes I think about you

You take my hand
Smile and say you don't understand
To look in your eyes and see what you feel
I then realise that nothing's for real

'Cause you know it's just your imagination running wild

Another bucket of sand
Another wave at the pier
I miss the way that I used to call the shots around here

You know it would have been nice of I had something to do
I took a trip through the past
And got to spend it with you

You take my hand
Smile and say you don't understand
To look in your eyes and see what you feel
i then realise that nothings for real

'Cause you know it's just your imagination running wild

Sun, 20 Jul 2008 18:14:53 GMT

It's been a while since I wrote in this because every time I write in this, i hate what I come up with. I've been working a lot lately. 40 hours a week. I just cam back from Well Maine where I spent with some friends. it was one of the best weekends of my life. I figured out my problem. See my childhood was one of independence. My parents didn't have to occupy me all the time, I was able to spend time with myself. I like myself a great deal. I have no self-esteem but I'm the best I am. I looked back on my life. I figured out that I can fall back on others and I don't have to be on a one way street, but most important. I learned that I don't know what a real man or a real marriage is. I don't know what it means to be in a real relationship. My parents hate each other and every other relationship is bad in my life. I've had some bad ones too but it wasn't the other person's fault. it was mine because I don't know what it means to be with someone else and worry about them in such a way that I can love them and allow them to love me. I'm too independent for that stuff, but I still want it. So I've made a decision. I will not be in a relationship until I find out what it means to be a man and what it means to take care of someone exclusively. I just take care of everyone but a girlfriend should get special treatment. I'm not going towards anything. I'm not ready. I need some time to figure that out. But it was a true awakening for me and I am sooo glad I went. I know what I should become but I don't know where I'm going and maybe that's the best thing for me right now.

"Hang on, Hang on, Hang on
Little clowns you might just turn the work around" ~R.Downey Jr.

Mon, 28 Apr 2008 23:34:41 GMT

Okay if someone asked me what are the words I hate the most. I would usually answer "whatever" "no" and "fabulous" but there is one more I want to add. It's not so much as a word, but a phrase that is said to someone in times of public display. "You're embarrassing me". This is one phrase right up there with "it's not you it's me" that really gets on my nerves. I hate it especially when someone is having fun and relaxing maybe listening to music and just having a fun time. Someone like me who is very calm and loves music for relaxing purposes. It's something that I love to do. I don't do it to be irritating and obnoxious. I just do it because that's who I am. I just love having fun and listening to music and maybe singing along especially if it's a song I haven't heard in a long time. It's normal well at least for me it is. But it doesn't matter because I need to not do it when there are people who think it's irritating. So I'm fine. I'm not mad, but I realized that I can do this with everyone because people don't like it. It's just something, but just because I haven't written in this in a while I should.

Stress is coming. End of year, saying goodbye. it's starting to hit me. I don't really want to leave but I do because I need money. Anyway new projects coming my way, more work for me. Maybe one of these days I'll actually become famous and people can respect me a bit.

One can only hope.

Take care for now :)

Mon, 31 Mar 2008 03:19:40 GMT

I have been feeling very amazing lately. Maybe it's because of the retreat and based on the fact that you have a retreat high for a while, but the fact is that I feel pretty good. I know I have work ahead this week and I have a lot to do, but I'm very...well...what's the word. Optimistic. The retreat was one of the most amazing experiences of my life and it's something I am loving and the fact that I was a part of. I am very interested in what I'm feeling right now. I'm happy about feeling more calm and not getting mad at things easily or getting mad at people who I should be collected with. In the future, I have a show. I am assistant director and a frog to Into the Woods. I am very excited about the upcoming show. I have to finish my TV show and that excites me that I'm really going towards something that is different for me and interesting. I am going to visit my friend, Carson, who I haven't seen in the longest time. That will be exciting and fun and I've been invited to a senior prom by Amanda. That helps my self-esteem because I've never been asked before. So I'm in a pretty good state right now and I'm interested in where this road leads. I have decided that I shall not quit my writing job because I felt that I wasn't good at it, but from the advice to someone I have been told that it's the only way I can return to a state of humanity and be really happy. Maybe my future will be writing, but let's wait and see.

Wed, 20 Feb 2008 05:13:22 GMT

I said the letter i wrote to Steph out loud in class today. For some reason, a weight felt lifted off my shoulders. I feel something I haven't in a long time. I feel like I could be happy. Like I don't have to have barriers in front of me. I feel like I don't have to be cold or cynical. Granted I was cynical to start with but I feel something new over me. I feel easy and really light. Maybe it's because the world I hold up isn't so heavy anymore. I may be very well over Steph and ready to find love again. I feel like I am ready to trust and love someone special again.

Sun, 17 Feb 2008 15:44:03 GMT

So if things couldn't get more fucked up. I receive a letter in my mailbox. It looks at first glace like one of those chain letters, but the thing is that it's a valentine hand written. It reads "Frogg, I'm so glad we are friends. Hanging out with you more and more has made my year better. Your unique sense of humor and videography skills have made me fall head over heels. I hope our relationship can grow from here. Happy Valentine's Day. <3 G (XO)" Now when i first saw that I was actually intrigued. The fact that someone wrote this for me, but who the fuck is G. I've been racking my brain over this. My friends that it might be one of my enemies fucking with me. Most of my enemies are guys. This si not guy handwriting. It's very girlish. I have no idea who this could be. I have convinced my self it's not a fake, but what if it is? I hate people fucking with me like this. i don't like incrypted shit like this. Also I'm just kind of tired of being here. I'm tried of dealing with all the shit that happens to fall to me. I'm tired of having people I think are my good friends actually hate me and not tell me to my face. I'm tired of doing work. I'm trying so hard to deal with things, but these classes are getting to me. They want us to go inside of ourselves and reveal ourselves. I can't do that. I've closed myself off too much. I don't want to let people see me vulnerable. That's not a good thing. A lot of things are on my mind that I can't really talk about to anyone. I had to write a letter to Steph for theater class. I have to say it on Tuesday. I'm scared. When i saw that letter, the whole suit of armor comes off. I need some kind of silver lining that doesn't seem to come. I'm trying to not show this to anyone because everyone else seems to have happiness and things going right. I don't want to burden them with my shit that I can probably take care of myself. It's hard, but I just need to keep holding on. Two more weeks and I can finally sleep.

I Won't Send Roses

Thu, 14 Feb 2008 20:22:17 GMT

Music & lyrics by Jerry Herman

I won't send roses
Or hold the door
I won't remember
Which dress you wore
My heart is too much in control
The lack of romance in my soul
Will turn you grey, kid
So stay away, kid
Forget my shoulder
When you're in need
Forgetting birthdays
Is guaranteed
And should I love you, you would be
The last to know
I won't send roses
And roses suit you so

My pace is frantic
My temper's cross
With words romantic
I'm at a loss
I'd be the first one to agree
That I'm preoccupied with me
And it's inbred, kid
So keep your head, kid
In me you'll find things
Like guts and nerve
But not the kind of things
That you deserve
And so while there's a fighting chance
Just turn and go
I won't send roses
And roses suit you so.

Mon, 21 Jan 2008 15:49:10 GMT

So I know I haven't really posted anything for a while. That would be because the fact is that my life is not that interesting at the moment and time. I am trying to go with a whole new wardrobe including a new hat, new clothes and new facial hair, or lack there of. I'm looking forward to this semester. I don't have a lot of commitments. I'm assistant stage manager for INto the Woods meaning Heidi does everything and I don't do a goddamn thing. Sleeper just greenlit a tv series that he is going to let me do for the TV Club. I am going to be working on that, but that's not hard work. I am concentrating on work this semester, but then again I always think of work, but in terms of my romantic and relationship department, that is going on hold for now. I don't know what I want and I don't really want to get involved with anyone. If I find the situation then maybe I'll consider it, but I'm not going to hold my breath. I like my world and my work right now so that's my life and story. It's going to be interesting and it's fun being with everyone who I missed. It will be funnier seeing more people that I haven't in a while. Welcome back to Assumption!!!

I Saw this thing on Katie Durham's lj and i did it myself

Sat, 05 Jan 2008 15:06:16 GMT

What Matthew Means

You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.
You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.
You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.
You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.
You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.
Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.
Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts.
You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it.
You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator!

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

Tue, 01 Jan 2008 14:59:07 GMT

IN 2007 I:
[ ]stayed single
[x] got kissed
[x]kissed someone new
[X] kissed in the snow
[x] kissed in the rain
[x] had my heart broken
[x] broke someone else's heart
[ ] had a stalker
[x]lost a friend
[x]had a good relationship with someone
[ ] questioned my sexual orientation
[ ] came out of my closet
[ ] got pregnant
[ ] had an abortion
[ ] got married
[ ] had a divorce
[x] kissed someone of the same sex
[x] met someone that I will never forget.
[ ] did something I regret (This is something that I never do)
[x]lost faith in love for awhile
[ ] kissed under mistletoe
[ ] got my first job
[] got a promotion
[] got a pay raise
[] changed jobs
[]lost my job
[ ] quit my job
[ ] dated a co-worker
[ ] dated my boss
[ ] dated my boss's son/ daughter
[ ] got fired from my job
[ ]got straight A's
[ ] failed a class
[x]did something I was proud of
[] fell in love with a teacher
[x] was involved in something that I will never forget
[ ] painted a picture
[x] wrote a poem
[x] ran a mile
[x] listened to music I couldnt stand
[x]double dipped
[ ] skinny dipped
[x] went to a sleepover
[ ] went to camp
[x] threw a surprise party
[x]laughed till I cried
[x] flirted shamelessly
[ ] visited a foreign country
[ ]visited a foreign state
[ ]cooked a disastrous meal
[x] lost something important to me
[x] got a gift I love
[x] realized something new about myself
[x] tried to gain weight
[] dyed my hair
[ ] came close to losing my life
[]someone close to me died
[] went to a wild party
[ ] got arrested
[x]read a great book
[x] saw a great movie
[ ] saw a movie so scary that it made me cry
[ ]saw a favorite band live
[x] did something that I want to tell someone but cant
[x]experienced something new
[x]made new friends
[x] found out who your real friends are
[x] lied to your parents
[ ] got in trouble with police
[ ] kissed in a pool
[x] kissed under the stars
[] did an illegal drug
[x]went to a party
[x]had the time of your life
[x]danced
[x] fell out of love
[x]had a crush on someone
[ ] changed your sexual preference
[x] swam in a pool
[ ] made a snowman
[ ] went snowboarding
[ ] went sledding
[] slept in past 2pm
[x] held someones hand
[x] held someones hand that you care about
[x] told someone you like them as more than a friend
[] gone on vacation
[] gone on vacation with a friend
[x]driven a car
[ ]learned to play a musical instrument
[ ] played strip poker
[x] danced in the rain
[x] seen someone get in a car accident
[ ] got in a fist fight
[x]laughed until you couldn't breathe
[x] had an amazing year
[x]missed someone
[x] got hit by car
[ ] sent someone to the hospital
[x] got a new pet
[x]enjoyed this year

Christmas in Fallujah

Sat, 22 Dec 2007 16:59:54 GMT

Music & Lyrics by
Billy Joel

It's evening in the desert
I'm tired and I'm cold
But I am just a soldier
I do what I am told
We came with the crusaders
To save the Holy Land

It's Christmas in Fallujah
And no one gives a damn

And I just got your letter
And this what I read
You said I'm fading from your memory
So I'm just as good as dead
We are the Armies of the Empire
We are the Legionnaries of Rome

It's Christmas in Fallujah
And we ain't never coming home

We came to bring these people Freedom
We came to fight the Infidel
There is no justice in the desert
Because there is no God in Hell

They say Osama's in the Mountains
Deep in a cave near Pakistan
But there's a sea of blood in Baghdad
A sea of oil in the sand
Between the Tigris and Euphrates
Another day comes to an end

It's Christmas In Fallujah
Peace on Earth Goodwill to Men
It's Christmas In Fallujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
It's Christmas In Fallujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
It's Christmas In Fallujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
It's Christmas In Fallujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Merry Crhistmas from Fallujah
Merry Crhistmas from Fallujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
OO-RA!

Thu, 20 Dec 2007 17:20:33 GMT

List your ten favorite musicals (in no particular order)and the answer the following questions.
1. Assassins
2. Parade
3. Urinetown the musical
4. Les Miserables
5. High Fidelity
6. Sweeney Todd
7. The Last Five Years
8. Spamalot
9. Rent
10. Tick Tick Boom

Have you ever seen these shows live? If so, where?
I've seen all except High Fidelity Last Five years, Spamalot parade, and Assasins live in new york

What's your favorite song from 2?
Rumblin and Rollin

Who's your favorite character from 4?
Javert

What's your favorite scene from 6?
Prieli's Miracle Elixir

What's your favorite lyric from 8?
I'm not dead yet

From 10, which character are you most like?
Jonathan

Can you quote every line from 1?
yes cause I have the book as well

How many times have you seen 3?
once

If you could be anyone from 5, who would it be? Why?
Rob Gordon because I can see myself in that chracter

What's your favorite song from 7?
If I didn't believe in you

Out of all these plays, which one is your absolute favorite?
Assassins

Who's the best Broadway actor?
Raul Esparza

Who's the best Broadway actress?
oh god...umm... Kerry Butler

What's the best musical they turned into a movie?
Hairspray but I think Sweeney Todd will beat that

Is there a musical you don't like?
trivial and mindless shows.

If so, which ones? Why?
Thoroughly Modern Millie, Good Vibrations, that kind of thing.

Do you think the movie versions are better, or the original Broadway musicals?
the original broadway productions unless they were flops.

This or That:

The Producers or RENT?
Rent

Wicked or Chicago?
Wicked

Fiddler on the Roof or Oklahoma?
fiddler, Oklahoma is okay but it's really naive.

Thoroughly Modern Millie or 42nd Street?
neither one, I hate both of them

Hairspray or Grease?
Hairspray

Posting when I should be packing

Tue, 11 Dec 2007 14:46:27 GMT

Alright it's been a while so yeah...A lot has been going on in my little world inside of my head. Mostly finals have been going through it. I tried my best, I have no idea how I did with my grades this year. I hope next semester will be better for me. So I'm going home today. I can't wait. I really need a break. I really want to just relax and then I start work Saturday. McInnis just joined the group at the deli, which is pretty cool. I haven't really talked to him in a long time. So it will be fun to work with him now. My Deli play got a nice push from Erin who suggested some new stuff for it and a new title which is Take A Number. It's going to be fun to work on that now. Bishop is signed to direct Stupidity Run a Muck as a film. I'm actually kind of excited about it. I hope the people we want can be in it. The only thing is that people are comparing it to Big Game. They are completely different, the character architypes are in there, the funny characters, the mean characters, and maybe even the economic elements are the same of them being poor, but it's very different then Big Game. The big difference is that I wrote it long before Big Game. I finished writing it 2 years ago and I started 4 years ago all in high school. I just hope that this one doesn't get cancelled.

I don't really talk about feelings and emotions a lot unless I'm with some people, but the fact is that I will miss all the friends that I have here at Assumption. I miss them all. They all make up a part of me and I can't wait till I come back to see them all here again. I will be happy to see some of my friends from home that I don't see very often anymore. I hope that everyone has an amazing Christmas holiday. I hope everyone finds the true meaning of Christmas found in the soul of each man

"Let the stars in the sky remind us of man's compassion
Let us love till we die and God bless us everyone"

Mon, 12 Nov 2007 18:18:44 GMT

Big Game is done. I'm really tired and close to losing it at some point but we finished. The last performance was one of my most horrible ones. I broke character on stage with an audience there, I've never done that in my life. Well it is very bittersweet because I got to know these people a lot better and I really like all of them and respect them all. I had so much fun because Alicia, Sarah, Chris, Spaz, and Sinclair and I had a lot of parties. My parents came up for my birthday, they sang at the first cast party and last night we went to Bugaboo Creek and I got to kiss a moose. It was very fun. Although today I had to do registration, it went well enough. I also had to get a tick out of Tim's foot. I have to help Jim bring the lights over to the atrium and he's already discussing the next project. I'm actually kind of pissed off at Brian because he hasn't told me anything about Into the Woods. Apparently, Heidi is stage manager and some of the cast has been cast, but he hasn't said a word to me about if I'm in the cast or if he needs stage crew people. it's just really annoying cause I want to know if I have a part and what the deal is. I think that if he doesn't get back to me by the end of the week, I'm just going to say fuck it and not do the musical this year. I have a lot of work and nothing really to look forward to. There is something missing that used to be Big Game and now I have nothing really to work on. I'm writing an updated version of Faust, but I don't know what I"m going to do next. I really don't. When Alicia was here, she gave me some advice to not give up on a part of me that I love alot and that just because something happened to never give up. I wish I could talk to someone and hear her say happy birthday and that she loves me. I hate my birthday, but I love my friends who made my birthday worth anything at all. They are truly magic.

Fri, 02 Nov 2007 12:11:43 GMT

Haven't posted anything in a long time. That's because there have been a lot of things going on lately. First off, I am losing and winning in the battle to get my grades higher. I am beating the Mircoeconomics where I just got a 98 on a homework where they have been 76s. That's good news. Problem of God is hurting me with a 69 midterm grade and I have a feeling the marketing grade I'm probably getting back today is going to be not that good. But that's that.

On the other hand, in my personal life, it's basically the Show. Big Game. It's coming along great. The cast seems ready and Jim seems very confident. I personally am trying to make sure I don't do any of my bad habits and just try to play the character. It's kind of hard because I have sort of one idea and Jim has another so I'm trying to meet half way with him. The cast is some of the most professional and talented people I have ever worked with. They all bring a sort of greatest and gravitas to the whole piece.

Another thing has been the advertising. Not many people realize this but everytime I go to someone in terms of public relation, Jim is right next to me. I want to bring him along to show him how to do it so that he can learn. I'm not trying to take the show away from him, it's his show and he's working very hard and working very well to make it as good as he can make it. The newspaper article is a load of shit. Jim sat down with Fulone and talked to him longer than I talked to him. According to Fulone, the editors re-edited his article and misquote me at one point as well as Jim. The editors say that Fulone delivered his article that was a complete mess. All I know is that I have been trying to push all the credit to Jim and the cast because they are doing the real work, not me. They are the ones bringing the show together. It just annoys me. I know that it's not my fault about the article, but I am really sorry and I feel bad. Jim told me not to worry about it, but I shall because I'm a worrier. I just hope people are not mad at me for this.

The last thing is that recently, my self-esteem is dropping lower than usual. I took one of those assessments to figure out if I am bi-polar, I'm not, but I don't know what's wrong with me. I just feel like people don't really like me anymore. I don't blame them, I'm not really a great person. I'm a great collaborator in the work process, but I know that I could be a better person and I'm trying so hard to be, but I just feel like people are distancing themselves from me. People I used to talk to everyday. I don't want people to hate me, I really don't. I promise I will try better. I am trying my hardest and I'm sorry if I haven't done my best that I can. I try to help all of my friends. I pray for them more than I pray for myself.

Tue, 09 Oct 2007 21:29:26 GMT

The last couple of days have been kind of hard on me mentally. But I found a solution to all of them. I need to let go. I need to not think that i need to act now. I need to be patient and like things just happen. I hate change. i really do. But there are things around me that are happening that i can't do anything about. I've listened to the advise of close friends and I just need to let things go. I need to press on and not worry. Letting go. Not the easiest thing for me to do, but it's something I must do. I understand now and I need to find a new way to go. Maybe fate and God will be kind to me for once. I can't know and I don't know. I just have to let things happen. I just have to let God decide and not be selfish.